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 Post subject: Newly Diagnosed - Looking for Support
PostPosted: Fri May 19, 2017 6:23 pm 
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Hi everyone,

I was diagnosed with OCPD a few weeks ago after years of not knowing what's wrong. Ive been diagnosed with unipolar depression, bipolar depression, anxiety, adrenal fatigue, and anorexia over the years - but this (OCPD) is the first diagnosis I've actually felt encapsulates my being. I almost failed out of university because of my paralyzingly inability to hand assignments in without them being perfect, usually leaving me without any grades. I would leave exams blank in fear of writing the wrong answer. I wasn't functioning at work in the kitchen, because I couldn't handle people not following the rules laid out by the manager and i took it incredibly personally. I've been experiencing symptoms of OCPD my entire life, but it really only worsened in my early 20s, and became crippling by 25. My biggest struggle right now is realizing that not everyone sees work in the same way I do, and not everyone is going to follow the rules, and I have to accept it and move on. But I'm having a really hard time reminding myself that other people are not bound to my rules, and other people won't always do what they "should" but unless it's impacting them negatively it's not a problem. I'm also realizing I react very negatively when someone is being inefficient or using my time inefficiently (mostly the latter). Otherwise, from what I can tell all of my perfectionism is inward based. I'm really struggling with the acceptance of the diagnosis, not because I don't believe it's true (it definitely is), but because it truly means I am flawed, will never be perfect, and because my perception of reality is skewed I will never be perfect in my own eyes, and my actions will likely never be perceived as perfect from others because they probably are not. I'm hopeful that with time I will be able to reduce my incessant need for perfection, but I'm scared this disorder will take the rest of my life as it has my youth.

Thanks for reading :)

edit: I did the crammer test and got 100/100 /:
edit 2: does anyone have experience with lamotrigine?


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 Post subject: Re: Newly Diagnosed - Looking for Support
PostPosted: Sun May 21, 2017 11:09 am 
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100/100. That's EXCELLENT.

I have been trying to ( be ) perfect my whole life. It is still difficult to not make things that way, but learning here by reading is very helpful. Realizing that the world is on it's on, can be liberating, but not doing our personal best on tests,etc is an immediate problem that I haven't fully understood nor worry that I have to change. The interpersonal side of things is the main issue, inmho with OCPD.

GOOD LUCK and don't be afraid of a perfect score on the cammer test.

SOHC

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Having an obsessive who is not conscientious is the psychological equivalent of diagnosing acute Dengue Fever without any elevation in temperature.
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